Only Child Syndrome

Bob Dylan - Make You Feel My Love

When the rain
Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows
And the stars appear
And there is no - one there
To dry your tears
I could hold you
For a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you
Haven't made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong
I've known it
From the moment
That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong

I'd go hungry
I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling
Down the avenue
Know there's nothing
That I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging
On the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change
Are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing
Like me yet

I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends
Of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love, To make you feel my love


I have had an AMAZING few weeks. Everything seems to be clicking into place. My kids are great, my job is good and the warm sun is stroking my cheek as Spring returns to Georgia...


My man and I have been traveling... three cities in three weeks... I've spent soo much time with him recently, that I think I'm about to rival my cat in his ability to purr loudly.

Driving away from him today I felt my mood spiraling into a free fall... It's crazy, I know.... I'm so spoiled rotten that I miss him when I walk away... I got home and went into my garden to cheer myself up... I couldn't find the joy, but I could see the beauty... my period hormones were winning out... positively gleeful that they found some bad juju to hold onto... so I grabbed my cat, turned on Pandora, and took a nap.


I woke up and decided to go for a run... big girl panties on and Ipod charged, I ran for nearly 4 miles. Running IS my salvation. Always has been. I went into a deep depression after I was raped at 15... When I came out of the depression 6 months later I started running... and I haven't stopped since... Running gets my head straight. I laugh, I sing, I cry hysterically, and run while I'm doing it... I run out anger and sadness... I run and embrace joy and life... I run... to feel alive.


I ran today and dropped my hormones off at the local high school where a deserving teenager could keep them for me. I know there's absolutely no reason for me to let myself into a funk.

What I was suffering from was only child syndrome... me me me me me... I'm sure it's because I'm an only child that when it's not all about me for a half a minute, I panic and pout... I know I'm being an ass when I'm feeling that way, so I don't say anything... I get angry with myself because I know I'm being unreasonable, and that just perpetuates the downwards spiral... because I don't like to feel icky and angry... So I pep talk self and scream at self... I can and do snap out of it always... today it only took me four miles lol...


The sun was shinning high... my family is happy and healthy... and I have the love of my life... my ONE... You know how I feel... amazingly good...



Michael Buble "Feeling Good"

Birds flying high
You know how I feel
Sun in the sky
You know how I feel
Reeds driftin' on by
You know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good

Fish in the sea
You know how I feel
River running free
You know how I feel
Blossom in the tree
You know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good

Dragonfly out in the sun you know what I mean, don't you know
Butterflies all havin' fun you know what I mean
Sleep in peace when the day is done, that's what I mean
And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
For me
Fooor me

Stars when you shine
You know how I feel
Scent of the pine
You know how I feel
Yeah freedom is mine
And I know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
It's a new life
For me

And I'm feeling good